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Once upon a time a little girl in a red coated silver gown got up the stage to sing a song in her school festival. She was so excited to perform in front of all. She rehearsed many times before her performance day. When she got up to the stage, she saw many gazes were rested on her. Nervousness mounted over her. The band started the music and she sang with the rhythm of music. But due to that nervousness she forgot some lines and started to fumble. The student started to laugh and mock at her. Her vision got blurry with tears and she couldn't sing anymore. She had to stop in the middle of her performance. She returned home with teary eyes and with an anguish heart. That night she cried her heart out. Her mom and dad tried to soothe her, but nothing worked out. 

That day remained as a nightmare for her, for the next couple of years. It was difficult for her to face people after that incident. She became an introvert person, started to hate attention and liked to be a wallflower at parties. She became shy, quiet and one of the back benches of her school and no one talked to her unless they needed something from her. She also preferred to be a loner.

One day she decided to win over her fear. She never wanted that life, but that happened to her. She held her pen and paper and made a list of ‘What to do’. She also explored the internet to find solutions to her problem. She tried several weird methods; singing aloud in a park or open area, greet to each and every person she met, changed her hair style and got a new makeover. But nothing worked out; she needed that inspiration to let out her fear.

One day she got that inspiration. Her source of inspiration was her own will power and her parent’s hope. Her parents supported her and they gave emphasize to one thing, ‘Never give up’. She came to know that to disclose the fear, she has to face it. She kept her positive attitude towards life and did another stage show. During her performance, she rediscovered herself and realized the power of optimism. Eventually she also comprehended that her personality has nothing to do with her phobia.

That little girl was me, who is now not-a-little-girl anymore. That scar from childhood left a deep imprint in my soul. Now also I’m having difficulties in doing something in front of others and now also I’m keep trying to improve myself. But I have found my optimism and I will definitely carry an optimistic girl tag. But my personality changed, I’m now an extrovert person with bubbly character. I had decided to look up at life and that changed my views towards life.   

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Sitting in a car, I observed the surroundings; a young couple enjoying their ice creams, a happy family moving parallel to me with a bike, a cute girl holding her mama’s hand to cross the road and some people screaming on footpath to sell their wares. I could see the clear examples of happiness, hope, love, trust, sorrow. The red light glow and the timer of traffic started to count down. I closed my eyes and a thousand flashes from my past played in my mind.

Four years before my parents decided to select a suitable groom for me out of many proposals that came for me, but I already had someone in my heart. So I had to reveal my relationship status in front of my parents. After so much denial they finally agreed with my choice and they called him for a meeting.

My parents seemed to impress after meeting him and processed further the marriage proposal. Our engagement was done in a grand way; we took the blessings from elders and heard our friend’s banters. The moment was captured in thousand clicks. When everything was picture perfect, life played a nasty game with me. The news broke me and shattered my dreams of a happy and blessed married life.

He was no more; I lost him in a dreadful accident. I was too shocked to react something, the truth was bitter and I was in no condition to accept it. I closed myself in a room for a whole week. My relatives and friends showered their sorrows and sympathies for me. I was lost in my void thoughts, when something inspired me to move forward in my life.

Then I decided to leave the misery, grief and move forward in my life. I shared my thoughts with my parents and they supported me. I decided to study further and complete my master degree. Papa used to tell me,‘The deep past should be buried; if you always look back at your past, then you can’t start a new chapter named ‘present’ of your life.’

I changed the place to leave behind the negative atmosphere and settled in another city closed to my university. I found my optimism in the motivations and lessons of life. I started my new life with lots of enthusiasm. I made new friends, gave focus on my studies and learned how to be on my own. I had never been apart from my parents. I was too much dependable on them.  At first I felt difficult, but eventually coped with the surroundings. I had successfully completed my master’s degree and got placed in a multinational company. My parents shined with pride and joy for my success.  

The sound of horns brought me back from my thoughts and I restarted my car to move further.     

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If I look down my life, I can see so many experiences starting from friendship to break up to emotional breakdown.  But that one feeling I never want to forget i.e. Love and Hate.

During my school days I walked home from school with my equally skinny best friend.  And on our way back we generally talked about Jake. Ah... Before that let me tell you all that Jake was my sworn enemy or worst enemy. I hated him with my life. Every time Jake and few other friends of his taunted us. They had also invented a thousand ways to make me cry.

My Dad always assured me “they only do that because they like you honey. Cassie you know if you don’t react then only they will stop bothering you.” I didn’t realize at that time that the torture from Jake was actually attention. By the tenth grade I was used to that torture. By that point Jake had moved on to hitting us with water filled balloons.

I had known him for five years, but the funny thing was we considered each other friends. I knew he somehow enjoyed my company. When others were not around then he would talk to me. He had taught me how to skeet but he never mentioned it to anyone. He behaved so nice to me in private, but he always maintained the tough exterior in front of others. We even held hands on my sixteenth birthday and watched the sunset together.  

When I had completed high school, we got into separated universities. On a summer I returned home from my first year of college, I ran into Jake. He was living on his own at that time. I found myself sitting in his apartment. We talked about those years when he bullied me, made me cry and even gave comfort me. After that I asked him, “Did you ever have a crush on me?”

And he responded, “Yes, Cassie I had a crush on you the whole time, but fear of losing you.”

We shared the love and hate relationship. Even now also I haven’t forgotten that memories.

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Dear Diary,

I felt guilty for rudely behaving with him. Ohh... My heart isn’t at ease because today my whole day went pretty bad. Yesterday I was so excited to meet him, but after seeing him today that excitement vanished. He brought his girl friend to meet me. I looked again his Facebook pictures and his pictures are so captivating, but he already has a girl friend, whom he loves truly. I felt broken. I had waited for seven long years for his arrival. I couldn't control myself and behaved badly. 

I’m disappointed, maybe I was hoping too much. I never realized his flirty messages in Facebook were nothing serious. But still I’m concerned about his interview. Did he perform well? I know I have to call him to know the interview result and to say him sorry also for my behavior. I know I can move on and after all he is my best buddy. I have lost my first crush but can't afford to lose my best friend.

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Dear Diary,

I have some good news to share with you. My best friend or recent crush is coming tomorrow to meet me. He is my best friend from kinder garden. I still remember at our first meeting we fought for the first bench. After that we fought for class monitor positions and started to fight for tiny things. We never realized when our fights turned to friendship and we became close friends. Everything was picture perfect until his father’s transfer news broke on us. He moved with his family, at that time we were only fourteen. After his departure, I started to realize his importance in my life. I was too depended on him. I never noticed when my feelings changed for him.

Finally, he is coming tomorrow after seven years. Some days ago a message popped on my window screen on Facebook from him. In that message he said that he has an interview to attain, and he wants to meet me also. If he could see that, I’m on cloud nine right now.

I have selected my black dress for tomorrow. Black is his favorite color. At first I want to know if he has the same feelings for me as I have for him. After that I will confess  my feelings....

See you again

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The climate was changing and the monsoon had arrived. I was drinking a cup of hot coffee. I was biting my nails and my heart was beating so fast as if it was going to explode. I was also tensed. I was in a horrified mood and I felt like I will be collapse. My father was having study loan, home loan. He is growing old and can’t work hard anymore. He had retired from his job one month ago. His pension wasn’t much to overcome the due expenses. He had supported me till now and now it’s my turn. I was still unemployed; I had applied in some organisations and got rejected also. The day before yesterday I had given my interview and was waiting for its result.
 
My phone’s ring brought me back from my thought, I accepted the call. After received it I heard the caller’s word patiently. After some time my emotions changed from horror to jolly. Tears fell out of happiness. I ran towards my father, touched his feet and announced, ‘I got the job.’  

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